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I changed the title of my blog. Since I'm not doing a picture everyday for a year three.hundred.sixty.five didn't really make sense. This probably doesn't make sense either. My middle name is louise and i hear jeeze louise ALL THE TIME. From mike especially. I'm not 100% loving it yet, so we'll see if it sticks.

Summer List

This is my summer TO-DO list. 

I'll add things and cross off things we've done.

I'm really excited about this summer because it'll be our last before baby is here....and baby will be 5/6 months next year - not quite old enough to do fun summer activities! 

- Get my camera rolling! Take lots and lots of pictures. 

- Go to the beach - I really want to go July 4th.

- Ride my bike - At least 5 times.

- Take the coaster somewhere - anywhere

- Read 5 books.

- Go to SeaWorld. I LOVE SeaWorld =]

- Go to Arizona.

- Tell all family members that we're pregnant.

- Go to Phil's BBQ.

- Go to a Farmers Market.

- Clean / Detail / Throw shit away in the house [fun right?!?! haha]

- Get Irie fixed && Completely potty trained!

- Go to the movies - at least twice.

- Actual decorate the house.

- See Adele live =] 

11/40

I wanted to do a weekly To-Do List.  Since I've been sick [pregnant] I've been behind on EVERYTHING. I put the pause button on so many things, but now that i've been feeling better there's no excuse! These list also will NOT contain all pregnant stuff.  I just want to be able to write it down and see my progress.


- Finish the friendship bracelet I should of finished aahhh 2 weeks ago. I'm soo sorry =[

- Clean up my house!! It's disgusting. Seriously d.i.s.g.u.s.t.i.n.g

- Stop saying the F word.

Over a Month...

It's been OVER a month since I've updated...

Instead of giving excuses i'll give you a ton of photos =] 

I finally fit into my High School jeans =] 50 pounds and 6 years later! 

I had a Birthday!!!

Momma always does good =]

Me && my lady friend [Christina].

horrible pictures....but I got my Camera :) if you live in the San Diego area and can tell me where I can get 120 film i'll love you forever!! I haven't used it yet :/.

My presents from Christina.

Mike bought be a cake pop....and i HATED it. To me they're disgusting. I'll stick to cupcakes =]

Present from Rosie!

Lady friend && I went to Chick-fil-A. My first time!! I loved the sandwich....not so much the fries. Is it just me?!?

Lady friend had a birthday!!! SHOUT HOUSE! We had a blast and were a little drunk haha....pictures to prove.

I'm not sure why i'm licking the ass on the cup? However, I love this picture lol.

Aw the lady friend && I.

Mikey. I absolutely love him.

Random employee getting in on the goods.

Requesting my songs! They played one...Cotton Eyed Joe!!

Mike && I.

I'm pretty sure we were KUNG FU FIGHTING the whole night....

My beautiful mom. =]

Her again....check out that wallpaper!!

 Mother's Day!!

Kayla Marie.

Sorry about the bra....

Rosie, Mom & I. Would you ever guess we're related?!?

Rosie & Ashlynn.

I know this is inappropriate but I love the message.  I'm also, starting this week, going to stop saying the F word.  I really hate that I say it.  And I say it A LOT =[

Ohh yes... Found out I'm Pregnant =] Happy face now, not so much when we found out. It was a big SURPRISE. Well, to be honest we both knew in the back of my head that I was pregnant.  But peeing on that stick and seeing the result that will change our lives forever - that was a shock. Mike has been the most loving, caring, supportive [everything] boyfriend I could ask for.  I honestly don't know how I'd get through this without him.  When I'm throwing up he is running behind me with water and a napkin. At home I hear him yelling over my own noise YOU OK?!?! YOU NEED ANYTHING?!?. He constantly is telling me I'm pretty [hot haha] and that he loves me [seriously - he tells me every 5 minutes now :) ] He asks me every day when he gets home if I've had a good day. I love him more [if that's possible] after going through this (and it's not even half way over!!) ILU <3

Christina & I made Souplantation our bitch on Memorial Day. mmm I want some now =]

After.

mmm in and out of hospitals. IV's suck I hate them. I'm certain there's many more to come.

We saw our Bean for the very first time =] 6/2/11

Irie. My lordy she is getting so big. She's taking up almost 3 cushions.

Proof that she thinks my lap & face are her toys. She is constantly crawling & jumping, She really likes to cuddle.

She was asleep..she hates flash. sucker.

Mike =] we went to the Fair yesterday...this was the only picture I took.  I really wanted to enjoy me time with mike so I turned off my phone for the whole time!

date a girl who reads

"Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag.She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.

Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by God, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilight series.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes."

— Rosemary Urquico

stole it from here :) 

Day 2

Where you'd like to be in 10 years . . .

really? i really fucking hate this question. In 10 years from today I would of just turned 34. I hope that I'm happy, really happy. Not the fake bullshit happy, but truly happy.  Have you ever seen Couple's Retreat?  M and I watched it last night and we both know we'll be the couple with Vince Von. Married, House, two BOYS (blah.) and craziness everywhere.  I picture me running around, taking care of kids a husband and a house.  I am absolutely fine with this.  Although I don't think it'll ever happen for me but I'd love to be a stay at home mom.  I really feel like this is what I'd be good at.  Of course I have no idea if I will be.  I don't have children of my own so I have no idea how I'll be with kids. 

... and that's where I picture myself.

till day 3

xoxo - b

Day 1

your current relationship. . . 

I try to remember that you never know how a relationship is behind closed doors, and I ask you to remember this.  Mike is the first person in my ENTIRE life to love me for ME. Mike is the only person that knows everything about me. When we first started dating I had a hard time believing that he could love me, that he wouldn't just up and leave one day. I had a rocky childhood and what I do remember is that every guy I ever meet growing up failed me.  Failed me horribly.  My dad didn't want to take care of his 5 kids when my mom got sick so we went into foster care.  FAIL. The first foster home I was ever at I was sexually abused at the tender age of 6-8 by the "father". FAIL. I told my male County Lawyer what was happening and he called me a liar that there was no way that could happen. FAIL. Mike hasn't failed me. I remember fighting with Mike in the beginning years of our relationship and telling him to just leave me & get another girlfriend and he wouldn't. He never left, && still hasn't.  I feel grateful everyday that he hasn't figured how crazy I am and hasn't left.  I'm grateful that he tells me he loves me a lot. I'm grateful that even if we are fighting I know we will make it through. I'm grateful that he listens to me. Actually really listens to me. I'm grateful that he isn't into sports. I'm grateful that he'll hold my purse in public - but only if it matches his outfit. I'm grateful that half way through dinner he'll tell me to stop eating - but not because I'm dieting/fat - but because there are cupcakes for dessert and he knows I'll be upset if I eat too much and can't eat a cupcake.   I'm grateful that he doesn't judge me and thinks I’m funny sometimes. I'm grateful that he tells me my cupcakes are better the Sprinkles =]. I’m grateful he left me get Irie. I’m grateful that he loves me.

A lot of people don't understand our relationship and don't understand why we are together. This quote I think fits mike and I wonderfully. “Not everyone will love you the way you want them to. It doesn't mean that they love you any less.” It doesn’t matter that we say mean things to each other & bicker everyday, or that my birthday present didn’t come on my birthday. It doesn’t matter that I almost threw a bottle of tanning lotion at Mike because I hit my foot on the door. We might not show it everyday but we do love each other, a lot. I know we have hard times and he frustrates that hell out of me basically everyday.  I know that even if I ask him what he wants for dinner he'll say I DONT CARE. I know he likes scary and gory movies but I really can't watch them.  Mike has been the only person to stay in my life continuously. He has taken me to new places and introduced me to a lot of great people. He has showed me more love then I knew possible. 

I'm grateful for mike - on good days and bad days && I love him, all of  him =]

Till day 2.

xoxo - - b